I’m really depressed lately for some reason.  A very personal thing that I had been keeping for about two months now.  It’s about my broken relationship with my ex-girlfriend (jing), a four-year relationship that ended just through a text message.  I know it sounds corny but it’s real.  Neither my parents nor my brothers know about it, I just keep it myself coz I don’t want them to be bothered by my personal problem. I know that sometimes they’ve been noticing my unusual actions, my loneliness but they just ignore me.  It’s been quite a while now but I have not fully recovered yet, you know how I’m crazily in love with her.  I thought she’d be my angel forever but now she’s gone I realized it’s only a broken dream.  By this time I don’t really know how her life is going but the last time we exchange text messages she told me that she’s happy with her life without me It hurts a lot but I have to pretend it didn’t hit me..  I don’t really know if she’s really happy maybe she’s just saying it to convince me that she’d already gotten over me.. She’s too fast to recover from that heartache, Is she just pretending to be happy?? Or there is a truth to what she told me… I don’t really know…  But we might be feeling the opposite emotion.. We’ve gone through a lot we did many things that we shouldn’t be doing (it’s more of personal thing) but I kept my feelings firm that whatever it takes I’ll stand by her, it didn’t last that long she gave up. I can’t do anything but to give her space.   All I know is that till this very moment I’m still crazily in love with her.